Preface
These are thoughts. A glimpse into my mind. I’m don’t have a solid conclusion of which I wish to persuade you. Of course I want to challenge you to pursue Jesus…and every bit of truth. Just don’t take these thoughts as super “firm”. Their the thoughts of one who still hasn’t fully settled on a specific set of thoughts!
First
This past week a friend wrote a good post concerning faith and healing. His main points:
- Biblical faith looks outward not inward—don’t have faith in yourself, or even faith in faith…have faith in God!
- The fruit of biblical faith is confidence, not confusion or inferiority
- Sons have access to their father, so ask
- Now and not yet—as believers we live the “already not yet” in lots of way; healing is in the same boat, sometimes God heals in the “now”, and sometimes God heals in the “not yet”.
If I wrote the post it would sound different and have some different wordings on account of other doctrines. But essentially his post describes what I teach and live. I very much agree.
Again, I agree with these thoughts, I don’t want my further ideas to detract from that. However, I feel like what I teach and live is often lacking a little “something”…which I haven’t quite defined exactly.
I don’t have a clear idea of what the “something” is, but it has to do with expectation, posture, responsibility, simple faith, and maybe more. My conclusion is not well defined, but simply an encouragement to be open to and pursuing a little “something” that is difficult for me to define precisely, but I think all can see it through at least a couple Bible stories. Hopefully it becomes slightly more clear as I continue.
Two Bible Stories
From Mark chapter nine: a possessed boy healed.
*Note, this story is primarily about deliverance…not so much healing, but I think it very much applies to the present discussion.
14 And when He came to the disciples, He saw a great multitude around them, and scribes disputing with them. 15 Immediately, when they saw Him, all the people were greatly amazed, and running to Him, greeted Him. 16 And He asked the scribes, “What are you discussing with them?” 17 Then one of the crowd answered and said, “Teacher, I brought You my son, who has a mute spirit. 18 And wherever it seizes him, it throws him down; he foams at the mouth, gnashes his teeth, and becomes rigid. So I spoke to Your disciples, that they should cast it out, but they could not.” 19 He answered him and said, “O faithless generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I bear with you? Bring him to Me.” 20 Then they brought him to Him. And when he saw Him, immediately the spirit convulsed him, and he fell on the ground and wallowed, foaming at the mouth. 21 So He asked his father, “How long has this been happening to him?” And he said, “From childhood. 22 And often he has thrown him both into the fire and into the water to destroy him. But if You can do anything, have compassion on us and help us.” 23 Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” 24 Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” 25 When Jesus saw that the people came running together, He rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it, “Deaf and dumb spirit, I command you, come out of him and enter him no more!” 26 Then the spirit cried out, convulsed him greatly, and came out of him. And he became as one dead, so that many said, “He is dead.” 27 But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he arose. 28 And when He had come into the house, His disciples asked Him privately, “Why could we not cast it out?” 29 So He said to them, “This kind can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting.”
From Mark chapter eleven: the withered fig tree.
12 Now the next day, when they had come out from Bethany, He was hungry. 13 And seeing from afar a fig tree having leaves, He went to see if perhaps He would find something on it. When He came to it, He found nothing but leaves, for it was not the season for figs. 14 In response Jesus said to it, “Let no one eat fruit from you ever again.” And His disciples heard it.
20 Now in the morning, as they passed by, they saw the fig tree dried up from the roots. 21 And Peter, remembering, said to Him, “Rabbi, look! The fig tree which You cursed has withered away.” 22 So Jesus answered and said to them, “Have faith in God. 23 For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, ‘Be removed and be cast into the sea,’ and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. 24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
Faith and My Story
For most of my life, I have had absolute faith that God is able to do whatever He wants. Unless you count random thoughts that are quickly taken captive (“how crazy is this, I believe in an invisible man in the sky!?”), I’ve just not doubted God. However, my faith that God will heal the person I’m praying for has not been so steady.
Additionally, by the middle of high school and continuing for a few years, I had faith that when I believed I would receive what I requested, then I would receive it. (By the way, that last idea is almost straight from Mark eleven.)
Sometimes I prayed for people and saw marked results—headaches gone, joints with greater range of motion, etc. Sometimes I prayed and nothing seemed to happen, I just figured someone (maybe me) hadn’t really believed we’d receive. I didn’t analyze it much though, you don’t need to experience “paralysis by analysis” to be aware of it!
But then, at the end of January of 2008, an abscess formed on one of my tonsils. It hurt like mad. It got to the point where I only slept for periods of less than an hour at a time. I remember asking with complete expectation to be healed. I expected to be healed.
As evidence: I was actually surprised that I wasn’t healed. I prayed again and again, crying out in tears. After a few days, my faith that I would receive what I asked when I believed I would receive went from ten to zero. In the end I had surgery…and my body recovered quickly, but emotionally I was left in a bit of shock.
My faith in God and His ability did not falter…just my faith in what Mark 11:24 says, “whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.”
I realized, I don’t understand something. I’m missing something. Was Mark mistranslated? Did he get the story wrong from Peter? idk…the questions weren’t supposed to make sense…I was shocked. I had asked, believing I would receive…but I hadn’t. It was just confusing.
The “Something”
Over the past few years since then, I’ve come to a slightly more mature and generally Biblical position (very similar to Derek’s). But I feel like I’m supposed to have a little bit of the “something”…and reading his post freshly challenged me to think about it.
Unfortunately, as a result of not understanding why I wasn’t healed…as a result of missing something. I lost the “something” that these passages encourage. A kind of expectation. A kind of responsibility. A kind of posture. A kind of simple faith. A difficult to define precisely “something”. It’s true, I can’t precisely define it. But when I read the two stories in Mark that I presented previously, they convey the “something”…they impart a bit of the “something”. They challenge me a bit.
Faith in faith? I don’t think that’s quite right.
Faith in us? Not that either.
BUT, something about us…and something about faith. Read the stories again if you’ve already forgotten, but here are some highlight statements with brief thoughts:
Jesus siad, “O faithless generation.” We, you and me, the “something” has something to do with us.
“If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.” Speaking specifically to the father, but I think it contains a challenge for all of us.
“Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” Again, this father had something to do with the “something”.
“He rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it, ‘Deaf and dumb spirit, I command you, come out of him and enter him no more!’” The “something” brings along some sort of authority…he commanded.
“This kind can come out by nothing but prayer and fasting.” Our posture matters, it has something to do with the “something”.
“Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.”
Wrapping It Up
After my experience a couple of years ago, my faith that I would receive what I asked for when I believed I would receive it, yeah, that faith…it went to about a zero. Interestingly, as I’ve continued asking God to heal (having total faith that He is able to heal if He chooses), consider these ideas, and grow in my relationship with Him, my faith that my request actually means something has begun to increase…I’ve begun to recover bits of the “something” I had lost.
Have faith in Jesus. Ask. If it doesn’t happen when and how you expected, don’t over analyze to paralysis!
But don’t lose the “something”. At least not entirely. The expectation that believing you will receive effects what you receive…that your posture has something to do with it…
I’m not back to a ten, and I’m not sure we’re supposed to be at tens (yep, that’s what I said). But there is a “something” that I get from those passages, and I encourage you to be challenged by these passages and to walk in a bit of the “something” too.
As these are still thoughts in process…I’d love to hear and be influenced by yours.
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